Plain ole Freewriting

Here I go, 15 mins! So I just spent the last hour and half writing and writing and writing some more and it turned out to be therapy and not really anything I care to share. I want to but not now, maybe never it still hurts too bad to layout it there. go away go away go away go away...writing is thrapy for me, both good and bad.  I can get it out on paper and I feel way better afterwards, the problem is some of things I have to let go of I just cant share them...so when I find time to write (have to bc of Comp1 -- thank God for the blessing!!! I regained my outlet. However on nights like tonight when a writing is to be done every day and the most peaceful time of day is (wellllll almost midnight when the house is quiet and jsut before Aerial gets home)...if I do it earlier I more apt to put off other school work and loose myself in writing (therapy). Its not liek today was bad...it actually was good, typical but good. Then around 7-8ish, it settled in...nope cant say that wont say that hold it in not gunna do it oh God no no no no no!!! thank you thank you so this has turned into a cross between freewriting and backspacing (im not worthy and if anyone see's this there gunna laugh) heck to the no am I ready for yet another ridicule...got enough of those kind of demons lurking around, mostly in the form of friends, or atleast I thought they were.  I'm praying I know I hurt alot of people along the way but damn....ok humilty andrea humilty some have no clue none at all even those you truly believed knew you (&her). Its not like she has taken over like she did then....they really dont knnow me do they? no tears no tears no tears no tears...im ok im ok im ok ....much betterAerial is home so now I can love on her and who cares if its not 300 words tonight....grade is good I TIRED AND OUTTA HERE!!